Monday, July 28, 2008

Goals going bust...

First of all, to everybody -- I'm floored that you are even reading my blog. I thought all my readers dropped off the face of the Earth because I stopped posting regularly. It feels good that you are still reading.

As for goals, the truth is that they all are in conflict. A religious person needs to learn Torah, not watch movies or read the newspaper at night. He also has to wake up in the morning for minyan, not oversleep because he was up until 2am-3am reading up on real estate investing or stock trading.

The coursework to get a CS or BSEE degree will take me away from my family -- that is a fact, but a sad sad sad fact. It will be something I will need to figure out to minimize the damage because I'm barely emotionally home to start with, even when I am physically in the house because I have my mind on all the other responsibilities and goals I need to take care of.

Weight loss needs to happen after work because minyan ends at 7:30am and I have a 1.5 hour commute and must be in the office at 9am, but at the cost of sacrificing an hour or so of time with my wife who dearly needs me in the evenings, so I usually come home instead of working out so that she can rest while I play with the baby and put him to sleep so that I can spend quality time with my wife. So the weight loss often is placed on the back-burner.

Debt reduction (e.g. paying back law school loans) is a deathly slow process on my salary, and I don't know how to deal with this one except to keep working extra hours and to badger my wife to minimize her spending, even though she is very reasonable in her spending to start with.

This is my life. This is a mess.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Wow, Zoe, I really feel for you. It really humbles me when I realize how tough life is for some people. All I can say is that I wish you the following: that very soon you'll be able to look back from a position of much happiness and satisfaction and say, "Those were tough times which thankfully passed."