Okay, so I went to shul and cried to Hashem. I asked him why I can't get a normal job, and why I can't have a normal relationship with my wife, and why can't we think along the same lines, etc. I finished davening, packed my stuff, and was heading home. Before I left my wife said she'd look up plans about taking a trip either to NJ or Connecticut because there are a bunch of things to do there that my mom would enjoy doing.
As I walked out, one of the rabbis stopped me and reminded me about the whole wrapping-our-son-in-a-tallis-and-taking-him-to-cheder thing. I planned on attending minyan in the morning at 8am to discuss this with them, but after the whole fight with my wife, I forgot about this and showed up to shul after minyan ended and I pretty much davened alone. I'm glad that I was flagged down and reminded about this by the Rabbi before I left. He told me that Lubavichers don't lick the honey off of an Aleph-Bais, but instead, they use a laminated enlarged version of the first page of the Tanya. "Cute," I thought. They allowed me to borrow one to take home so that I'll have one with me when I bring my son to cheder the following day.
I came home feeling pretty good about myself and ready to spend the day with my wife, mom, and kids. When I got home, nothing was done, nobody was ready to leave. My wife was in her pissy mood, and when I asked her if she looked up places to stay or things to do, she said she didn't because she was taking care of our kids. I brushed off the insinuation that me being at minyan left her alone with the kids and thus I wasn't doing my part of the parenting. I put the laminated Tanya page on the bookshelf in full view hoping that my wife would notice it and be appreciative that I took care of this because a few days beforehand, she accused me of not knowing what I was doing with regard to the upsherin. I wanted to let her know that I was on top of it all, just as I *WAS* on top of everything that had to be done the day before, even though she accused me of ignorance about that topic as well.
I half hoped that my wife would have taken the initiative to take my son to fix his haircut as we spoke about this morning before the fight broke out, but apparently she had no intention of doing so. I joined her in the privacy of our own room and asked her if she had any response to anything I said earlier that day, because I didn't feel like driving to Connecticut if we didn't resolve our bad feelings from earlier that day. She said that there was nothing to say and that she flatly disagreed with pretty much everything I said and that she thought I was a moron and that I didn't know what I was talking about. She understood that everything I said was a criticism of her, and that I just went on and on about how I was upset about the haircut.
TO SAY THE LEAST, I WAS FLOORED.
At this point, I didn't know what to do. Obviously I wasn't going to go on a day trip if my wife and I didn't resolve such an important argument as we had this morning. When I told her this, she said, "I have absolutely no interest in going around with you or showing your mom a good time. Don't think that you're doing ANYTHING for me by taking me us out today." I was so saddened at hearing this because I was so sure she wanted to go do everything we planned, and *I* WAS THE KIND ONE THAT I WAS TAKING OFF FROM MY LAW OFFICE FORMATION EFFORTS TO SPEND TIME WITH THE FAMILY, AND I WAS ACTUALLY A BIT UPSET DURING DAVENING THAT MY WIFE DIDN'T CONSIDER THE IMPORTANCE OF ME WORKING TODAY AND INSTEAD ONLY WAS INTERESTED IN HER TRIP TO CONNECTICUT.
So now I just spent the past two hours shut in our bedroom with the laptop battery about to run out. I feel sad, and I feel alone. My wife is not interested in my feelings, and she is not interested in hearing anything I have to say about the upbringing of our family. She has completely ignored me since I came back, and I'm about to burst into tears because I don't know what to do. Do I pull her aside and have my mom watch the kids while I make nice to her? Do I talk to my mom and get words of wisdom and advice on what to do? Do I call my rabbi who will only tell me that I'm right, but that I have to give in to keep shalom bayis?
I feel like the whole situation is helpless, and that I don't have anywhere to turn. I really feel that this has been a breakdown of communication, and that we really need to see a marriage counselor. I feel so violated and hurt. I have never been more floored by today at her uncaring and cavalier attitude towards our marriage or our relationship. I've always given her the benefit of the doubt, but there is no excuse here, no way to explain her way out of this one. She simply doesn't care. :( What do I do?