Something hit me today. It wasn't the lazies, but it was an incapacity to be able to move or get anything done today. I was tired beyond belief. I still am.
I went to sleep last night around 1 am. I won't say that it was because my dad kept me up late -- again. I woke up this morning at 5am (yep, four hours of sleep), went to minyan to pray, and then I went to the gym. I lifted again the same amount of weight as yesterday. I also pressed some weight and now by body is feeling it. I might have pushed too hard.
But when I came home, I got frustrated because my investments weren't going my way. I was also annoyed because my computer wasn't working properly and the hard drive was spinning, effectively locking me out of my computer for twenty minutes at a time. Stupid me waited. Then who knows what I did -- a little piano playing, a bit of reading, some breakfast -- the time snapped from 10:30am to 1:30pm. I lost three hours of time doing who knows what.
At 1:30pm, I was physcially exhausted and I could barely move. I tried to pack up for school and do some work, but my mind was so exhausted I couldn't focus enough to be able to pack my bags and get into my car. Now it is 2:45pm, and hour and a half later -- I napped for half an hour, but I am still exhausted -- and I decided to skip the three classes I have today in order to catch up on some work.
Missing classes in law school is a VERY BAD thing to do, and I just blew off all my classes. I am not happy about this. I wish I knew what I could do to get my energy back. It just feels like it was sucked out of me.
My classes technically start at 3:15pm. I could make it if I leave now. Maybe I should bite the bullet and just get in the car and go to school. Maybe I'll do that. Let's see if I can. NO. I want this time to prepare for the bar exam. There is too much work that I CAN do if I stay home that if I go to school it will be a waste of a day in classes (I am not prepared for my classes and I DON'T LEARN when I am not prepared). I don't want to waste my day. Instead, I want to do bar review.
This is my decision. I am taking the day off to do bar review. My professors will understand.
-Zoe
2 comments:
almost everyday i feel as though there isn't an ounce of energy left in my body. most of the time it's mental exhaustion (i'm in advertising). today, it's emotional...although i'd just come back from a short trip out of town. *shrug* maybe i need (legal) drugs...
Heres a question: were you losing time before you started medication? I started losing time when one medication was started for me, lack of concentration occured too - could it be that you need your pills adjusted??? Just a thought.
Second, I know how maddening it can be with going to classes vs. studying. It's always a juggle isn't it? Either way, you hate to waste the time. I took Software Engineering, a not so easy course, and I had the same trouble.
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