Tuesday, September 13, 2005
Ear Pain From High Pitched TV Sounds
Holy sh**! Doesn't my dad ever sleep??? It's 4:30am and he's walking around. I just had to chase him out of my room. "Don't talk to me in the middle of the night," I barked at him when he came into my room and started a conversation seeing that I was busy working. Now I'm all frustrated and I have a headache. Damn. I feel like I have no privacy here. I can't wait until I get a job and have my own place. I'm 28 years old, I shouldn't be living with my father, it's my fault for being here. Maybe if he had something intelligent to say or if I felt that he respected my boundaries, I'd hear him out -- but his conversations are always so dull and without substance. I'll be annoyed for the next half hour or so, I know it.
I wish I was more independent and financially stable. I tell people that it's a $10,000 decision to live on my own this year. I can get that money as a school loan at the snap of a finger. Each time I consider it, I have 20 people who tell me that its a bad idea and that I should save my money because I'll need it when I get married and when I start working. I pray every day for the day to come where I move out of here.
The Bad Son
PS - Now his goddam tv is blasting upstairs. I can hear the high pitched frequency noice which gives me a headache. I am very sensitive to these sounds -- that is one reason why I hate televisions. Even with the sound off, they are so f***** noisy and they hurt my ears and cause my moods to go all out of balance. Can anyone make the pain stop???